IS SHE A DREAM?

Mahogany

One night on a joyous occasion while in the mist of a celebration. I gazed upon Mahogany. Her dark chocolate brown skin and pearl white teeth, radiated her beauty under the light of the moon and stars. Her round chin and high cheeks characterized her uniqueness.

While talking to her, I learned of her hurt and pain. I knew at that point we shared the same. Two people brought together by an unknown twist of fate. Not knowing their futures and not willing to wait.

A woman so brown, beautiful, slender and sweet. The essence of her radiance I wanted to keep. We talked and listened, and wondered if this could last. I pulled her close to me and felt her as she gasped.

I looked her in the eyes and asked, are you a dream come true? She gently pulled my face towards hers and said, I am if you want me to. The light of the moon danced off her Mahogany skin. I kissed her long and slowly, she pulled away and grinned.

Do not tease me for my search has been long. I have scoured the earth singing the same old song. A song of loneliness and hope that I would someday meet. A woman so fine and beautiful to keep.

Her aura was bold and splendor, a joyous sight to behold. I have only heard tales of this and stories that were told. Could you be a dream that has come into my life? Is this my reward for living a life that wasn't quite right?

Right in the way of love and relationships that never would unfold. Relationship that left me empty and feeling rather cold. It began to rain and I started to wake up. I looked around to see her and knocked over a coffee cup.

At that point I realized it was just a vision of you. I tried to relive the moment, but felt this wouldn't do. So once again here I sit, feeling all alone. Wondering, daydreaming and wishing you would come home.

Come home to me in my dreams and satisfy my needs. Come to me and keep me warm and safe in your embrace. Let me feel the love and smile showing on your face. I'm calling for you and thinking about you,
I know you feel it to. Until that day comes I will hold you in my heart. Then the loneliness will stop dogging me,

I will have my Mahogany.

So WOMAN, i say again, WOMAN, don't be mad at me for being what you call a 'player' or 'not serious' when i try to discover you and bring you into my world, understand, only Mahogany can reside in my palace. yes that's right i said it. my palace which is a very delecate place. A lot of men are afraid to open the gates, but then again who isn't? I'm still on my journer to Mahogany, God will reveal her to me, but i search and scour the WOMAN for you Mahogany, and each one i pass is mad because they can't be you. But i'm not mad at them, i can learn a lot from them, they can learn a lot from me, but first they need to find themleves, they don't know what they want, is it a gang member? some con artist? a badboy with an 'edge'? a marshmellowy sweetboy? or just a plain old friend? i understand that everyone has different feelings and needs, but, my woman, what do you REALLY want????

Mind of R-H

January 12, 2006-closing the week

I had like four lectures today and i didn't feel like going to any of them, don't get it twisted i'm not a wasteman, i just like to rest a lot but always get my work done and get the grades ;-) my course is getting pretty tense as January exams are approaching so things are going to be on the quiet side when it comes to me and women...
It's such a small world you know, it's like everyone knows everyone, especially at university...so fellas, that girl that you are looking to get with may be your cousins cousin or some nonsense like that, or even worse, your ex's best friend...hehe...
I woke up in the morning feeling as fresh as ever, my laptop was beside my bed, still open as i'd left it on from last night..my MSN messenger was blowing with messages from last night. 11:30am....DOOHHHH!! my lecture was starting at 12:00pm, i rushed to have a quick shower...i love it when my shower is boiling hot, especially my power shower, just massages your body so deeply, it's like love-making...anyways, got out of the shower to get dressed. I couldn't be to picky with my dress sense so i put on some casuals, my black n white chucks(converses) black levis jeans, black evisu t-shirt, and my black d&g jacket. Sounds flashy but it looks casual trust me. I sprayed on some of my Givenchy Pie(my weekly scent) put on my shoulder bag and rushed to my lecture as fast as i could, it's not about being late you see it, i have to strive to be the best if i want to be one of the best Database Analysts in the industry. Oh sorry i forgot to mention what i'm studting now...i started off with a degree in business and accounts first off but that was not what i really wanted, deep down, i wanted all the technical stuff(bsc Software Engineering), i had the drive to take on what hundreds of students are scared of... programming, to me it's just everyday life. Programming is about rules and functions that control those rules, creating events. It sounds like tricky stuff but you'll get the hang of it after a few lessons in front of computer with me(...that's if you want one).

Finally!! the lecture was over. I met up with Andrew outside of the main campus building, he wanted to go to the town centre to pick up some things(CRAZY SHOPPING)...
"You cool bruv, what happened to you yesterday? where did you run off to?" he said to me with some dodgy smirk on his face.
"Oh, nowhere, i went to see Sasha you know, nothing happened though" i replied with a sigh. Yes I did go to see Sasha last night, we just chilled out. I swear it's like the kiss that we had was just a spear-of-the-moment kind of thing and i guess she didn't want to touch on it too much, well i guess the suspense adds to the fun a bit. It wasn't sex but it felt like a one night stand. When i was at her place, it was like she showed no sign of emotion, even when she talked to me and asks me things, not that i want her to be feeling all horny and that but it was a bit weird still, interesting....
"Oh yeah, what happened with that girl that you was dancing with last night, any progress?" Andrew said.
"Err, yeah i took down her number, besides it's too soon to call her". i replied, i wasn't about to call some girl who's number i just got the night before the day after, that's slipping...big time...maybe like 2/3 days after, preferably 3...me and Andrew continued as we entered into the city centre, wasn't as live as it was when me ans Sasha came yesterday...we browsed a couple of stores, shopped and was ready to leave..i swear i need to try a different city and shop up there, it was getting a bit too routine for me, all the going into shops and seeing the same faces...we finished up and headed back for campus, i'd not had any plans to pay any visitations to anyone today so went straight home, it's been a while since i had some quality time to myself. Got back home and dived onto my bed wthout removing any clothes....it was late..
I took time to think to myself seriously about all of the women in my life at the moment as in what's going on, what levels are they all on? I spoke to Donna today(my bestest PR) we've been talking like everyday now, i intend on finding her a date for valentines, she's starting to drop the 'i ain't got time for boys' line, so i feel it's my duty to help her find a nice guy you see it??, cus we i know i'll be getting mine somewhere with that lucky young woman...hmmm....not saying that she can't do it herself but boiii..i'm practising on being 'good-friends' with a BUFF girl for once, you know they say boys n girls can never be true friends, to an extent i believe that is true but i WANT TO beliveve otherwise and break that code making Donna one of my very good friends..

Also spoke to Grace today, she sounded so matured on the phone considering to cuss her about her childish voice..hmm...she told me some dude she just met at work has been speaking to her...i was suprised she actually told me...lol..not that i had her on some kind of lock or anything....we had a very weird conversation when we met up, we met up at this link up thing that our universities were having...not much people turned up but hey...
We talked about the past a bit, she seemed a bit hesitant to continue the conversation, but deep down she knew she needed a reminder of those things we used to do back in the dayysss...it was a sweet convo. Grace was starting to change now and i could see it in her. Something is still there... can sense it....what's deep is that i don't know what i feel for her anymore. It's been a long and tiring week....i close my notebook...and close my eyes...

P.S To those who are wondering who the heck Grace is, I will be explaining the most 3 highlighted experiences i have ever shared with women so you guys can know how Raheem came about, meet the women who shaped my character and contributed to the type of person i am today. GRACE,ADELLE and WINNIE. All will be revealed in the next post as i go into the details of the Gate,garden,palace idea.....these are.. ::.MY WOMEN::

Peace n Love
Raheem

January 11, 2006

It's the day of the party, and boy am i excited. The reason being is that i am going to see so many new faces(girls) and get out there to see what the world is saying. Before the party i had to go and do some REAL shopping since every high-street store i went it yesterday was so wack. I need a new style, almost every guy shops in Topman, H&M etc, guys are slowly moving away from the curse of the nike air tracksuits and the air max trainers. It's like uniform. If they are moving, i must make sure that i'm ahead of the game.
I went to town, for shopping,but this time, i went with Sasha, i told her i wanted to buy an outfit for the party later, it would also be good to spend some time with her in the light for once instead of the warm, dark soulful atmosphere of her room. We walked down the broad streets of the centre browsing ever 'classy' store we could see....'Thomas Pink'...hmmm, gave it a try, bought some sexy shirt for the party. Took a trip to KG(Kurt Geiger) but nohitng really tickeld my facy there. No jokes Raheem's stepping up you see it.??
Before i knew it, the sky was dark but the streets were still packed with shoppers. I dropped Sahsa off at hers and i dashed back home, i told the boys i'd meet them at mine for our little 'cotching' session before the party.
We had time to catch up on all of our weekly activities and certain deeds we got up to. But don't get it twisted peeps, i don't tell my friend everything that goes on in my life, somethings that i think i may be good at, they could highlight the faults, which may ruin my confidence, and i don't want that, neither do the BUFF women i will be approaching and getting to know in the near future.
"Raheem, what happened with Sahsa bruv, did u piece her?" Andrew said anxiously with is eyes wide open. Andrews is one of my boys that i'm in uni with, we are really close because we knew eachother way before uni, from school days and just happened to attend the same university. Andrew works for some posh high status investment bank in the city centre, he's good-looking and wins most of his ladies over with his humour.
"Nah , it's not that, she ain't ready for me yet bruv, in due time i'd have sealed the deal..haha" i replied with a smirk on my face...hehe...no way i was about to tell those guys that i did a thing with Sasha, even though it would have boosted my ego so much because it was in fact them that told me Sasha said my 'game' was slippin...wow...she's got some nerve hasn't she?? Try'na hot my sh** up, boy it's not a thing.

"Hurry up and get changed then bruv, no time to waste" Andrew moaned. i don't really liked to be rushed when i'm getting changed, spoils my flow. I went over to my shopping bags which i hadn't emptied yet and took out one of the sexy Thomas Pink shirts i bought today. The cufflinks came with it, silver, oh my it looked good. I wore one of my pin-striped trousers i had brought back in Celil gee and had never been worn once....i was ready to go!! Sprayed a tiny amount of Diesel Plus Plus on my neck, and rubbed tiny amounts on the back of my ears, so when i lean over to talk to the ladies, they can smell that heavenly scent that sets them in a trance..
We dashed out of my apartment and headed for the party, it was in some classy club/bar, it was only students that go to that place and i could tell that they were all well-off, telling by the flasy cars that were parked outside of the venue. The party was invitation only so i got the idea that the birthday girl was rich or just new a lot of wealthy people(through a rich boyfriend). I love I.V parties where you don't have to cue, it's not about lining up outside so all of the ladies can see your face before you even get in, it's all about suprise, so when they see you in the club they like WOW(that's if you are wow),me and the boys walked straight in. The music was almost deafening but the vibe was already alived considering it was only like 12:00am. The rest of the guys were heading for the bar, "are you drinking anything Raheem?" Andrew said looking back as he was just about to go to the bar. "Vodka and coke please" i replied and quickly dissapeared into the crowd, heading for the sofa section. This is where i could get a good view of analysing what went on around me and people passing by. I found the an empty sofa and sat myself right in the corner. Everyone was on a big hype, about what? Anyways, Andrew came back with my drink and sat next to me to observe....."WOW, did you see that girl bruv, she's nice man, i'm gonna move to her" Andrew shouted, There was this fine ebony babe, wearing some kind of satin black dress, wow, you know the kind that sticks to the woman's skin and highlights her curves/lady lumps(if she has any!!!) ?.he's always on a hype about girls, and the funny thing is, most of the time he wins. Most of his successses with the ladies are due to his unique sense of humour, the dude even makes ME laugh, and it takes a REALLY funny person to make me laugh(or a real wack person...haha)..
"Yea i saw her, she's nice still, move to her then, noones stopping you, 3-second rule, you know the routine." I replied, Andrew new the deal, he was good with the ladies, so i had confidence in him he was going to approach that beautiful girl.
"One..two.....three....three.....thr.." Andrew stuttered..NO!!! he was still sitting in the same place he was like 5 mins ago, NEXT TO ME!!! Oh well i guess it didn't work for him that time. "Bruv, what happened there, you didn't make your move" i said.
"Raheem don't worry man, i'll get her before this party finishes"

The 3-second rule was this routine a friend of mine explained to me that helps someone build up their confidence when approaching the opposite sex, the idea of it is that as soon as you have seen the 'girl of your dreams' and think about approaching her, count to 3 seconds and make your move..3 seconds may seem a bit short but it helps, trust me. When this guy told me about it, i thought it was all malarky at first but it works like magic, practice makes perfect....i'll need a bit more practice though, then i'm there, i want to be able to say that i can get any woman i want.But soon come....hehe

Time passed and it was already 1.45am, 15 minutes left of the party, this is the slowjam section, the time when you don't want to be standing on your own like some dude or posing with your 'boys/crew/man dem' like some nerd....get out there, grab a chick and wiiinneeee!!!!! Ok...lemme calm down a bit..The DJ stopped the music completely...everyone paused in anticipation and guess what he plays......."GIRL I'M SO SICK OF LOVE SONG, SO TIRED OF TEARS, SO DONE WITH WISHING, YOU WERE STILL HERE"..Bllaaaaarrrrpp!!!!!! That's my tune, ok, i had to find me a girl to dance with, i mean, i didn't want to be standing on my own like some loner, even if the girl was not what i wanted..she still had to be pretty tho ;-). I headed for the dancefloor like a soldier ready for war(without the marching..). I saw this nice black girl dancing on her own next to the wall, i could her some next girl who seemed to look a bit like a friend dancing with a guy, poor girl, she's got noone to dance with...hehehe....so i approached..

"Hey, you look a bit lonely there? are you here alone, and why aren't you dancing with anyone..i must say you look cute standing there by yourself.."
I said in some cheeky voice.
"I'm here with a friend" she replied smiling(hmm...IOI)
"And where's your friend now, anyways that's not the point..because you look so cute standing there, i don't want to stand aside watching you like some freak, so i thought i could keep you occupied while your friend over there is...." I said..
She agreed to dance, i wasn't on a grinding thing so we danced pretty casually as the song continued..

Before i knew it, the party was done, the girl i was dancing with, so i thought, what the heck, took down her number, she was a bit hesitant at first, but i had to show her that Raheem doesn't get turned down, come on, this is 2006...
I went over to the birthday girl, where she was standing with her friends. "Happy birthday love" i said as i gave her a quick peck on the cheek. "Thanks for coming Raheem"
I said my goodbyes and dashed out of the club, Andrew was nowhere to be found, who caress.....i had a 'meeting in my bedroom, bedroom, bedrooooomm..'..had plans to meet up with Sasha, hmmm...


::Quick Point::
Ok ladies, gimme some help on this one..i'll give you my opinion then you could help me on it. I genuinley believe that the club scene is not the perfect battleground for not so good looking guys..because think about it, in a club if some guy, let's say he looks like chris eubank(no offence chris..hehe) was to approach you in a club, everyone is live, music is loud..you'd probably look him up and down and think to yourself..'bruv..low it'..am i lying? but if some kind of Tyson Beckford-looking kind of brother walks up to you, it's an instant smile...I MEAANN..it's like the club is some sort of fantasy world for women where they fell that every guy that comes up to them must be some kind of hollywood actor..even the anti-gabrielle union girls(substitute for butters) , expect to be approached by buff guys(snnapp out of the trance ladiessss)..anyways, i just want an view on why this is the case ladies...leave comments to show your view.

Raheem. x

January 09, 2006

Today was quite a drag. I Spoke to Grace, i swear i'm starting to wonder about that girl. Is she getting smarter or what or is she just trying to act, cus according to previous experiences, women can act(hence why they hardly ever get caught slippin/cheating). She was all giving me this funky talk about how she's changed and how she's on some next level in terms of 'lovers and friends' and a relationship, i couldn't care less even if she'd devolved to a monkey in fact. Sounds harsh but, boy it's true, i don't see Grace in 'that way' anymore, we've grown apart now, at least i have and i hope she is. I think it's time i told her about the new girls i've been seing and talking to. Everytime we talk or see eachother, it's like we always put on a front like we aren't seeing anybody else since 'our time', when i ask "what's your love life saying? or hows the dating scene" she always seems to give me back this "it's dead man, seriously". And i'm starting to wonder because i give her that same answer but i know my dating scene is starting to heat up and is far from dead. Boy, maybe hers is really dead, maybe she hasn't got time for guys at the moment(not that i care). Anyways enough about her.

Today was so boring you know, i spent most of my day in the comfort on my bedroom, with the heater on listening to music and browsing the net. By boys gave me a call to come do a lil shopping in the city centre, when they say little shopping, they really mean 'bring your credit card' kind of shopping .So Went to town with the boys to buy some new things. A friend of a friend was having a birthday party tommorow and i had been told i was invited so this was a reason to go out and purchase a lil' something. The January sales were really crap so i didn't exactly come back home with like 10 bags. I took a trip to Debenhams to see what the sales were saying....nothing....went to Tompan...nothing.....Zara..nothing....and finally House Of Fraser...nothing. By the list of all those stores you could probably tell my dress sense already and one thing i can say is that i HATE to look like other people 'on road', got my own style, it's called the R-TYPE. Very classy, smart at the same time, with a bit of 'hood' in it. So when u see a brother with the R-TYPE, beware, he's probably a phony, only Raheem's got the real R-TYPE style. I left the city centre without buying anything and i wasn't complaining, seen as i saved money. I wanted to see Sasha today, haven't seen her since our little 'meeting' in my bedroom....:-)..I sent her a text :"Hey Sasha, how you doing? what you up to later, i'm gonna be in ur bits so i thought i'd pass by n see u....Raheem..xx"
I didn't want to sound to desparate and at the same time didn't want to give her the idea that i didn't care, because that could be a valuable investment out the window if not handled right.
"No problem raheem, let me know when your coming...s.x" She replied.
I still had quite a lot of time at hand before i went to see her, so i killed time and visited an associate. Not a very important person(YET). Before i knew it, it was 9:00pm, i sent her a text to tell her that i was on my way. You see, that's the thing i like about Sasha, she never messes or flops on you, if you tell her that you want to meet her and arrange a meeting, she'll make it, unlike some...but don't be getting the idea like she's some goody-girl because of that..

"Hey Mr Raheem, looking good, i like your new jacket" she said in a somewhat sarcastic tone. "Thanks" i replied. I could feel a weird tension between us, maybe it's because we never mentioned what happened between us the other day. We just carried on like normal, at least i did, so i guess she played on. She was busy cooking, while we caught up about what has been happening since we last saw eachother which was only 2 days ago. Sasha's a great cook, she makes any dish, you name it, especially the food from back home...

"What's on your mind Raheem?" she said as she paused and gave me a look dead in the eye. Ok, i was thinking what is this girl on about? i swear that's my line, is she up to something? because Sasha loves to play a lot of mind games because she thinks it's the only way she's going to stay on my level..i wasn't complaining, i love it when a girl can keep me on my toes, i'm looking for that girl who is going to knock ME off my feet, that's the day i'll put my hands up and surrender to committment(yeah right, me surrender? haha)..

"i don't know, you tell me, you know what i'm thinking, dig deeper" i replied. Ok, i know what your probably thinking, that do i think im sort of hypnotist or something?? lol...the answer is no. To the guys, when a girl asks you these type of dodgy questions, never give a definite answer because she might take whatever you say and use it against you, give an answer with let's say. two meanings and allow her to use her own brain to figure it out rather than taking what you say, which might not really be what you mean and take at another way.

Me and Sasha went on, i was seated on the couch, faced to the tv, but i could still see her in the kitchen doing her cooking. I didn't want to make it as if i was giving full attention to her, like she's the onlly one on the room(the other one is the TV..HEHE). We didn't even end up doing anything, i played it 'cat n string' theory(more about this l8a), i could have made a move but i left it, i don't think she was bothered though.....as soon as i left her place, i dashed back to mine, my msn mennger had 7 windows open with messages....one was from Donna(hmmm)

P.s: I hope Sasha's going to be an interesting one..

Raheem

P.L.G.N.D

This week, has been pretty much exciting for me. Raheem is finally back on the map. Back in the scene, the swings and seasaws are back in the Playground and everyone is playing..it's going to be so fun.(To the ladies, this is nothing to do with 'Game'...hehe, it's just reality) The Playground is where it's at, my rules, my world, my decisions. This may sound freaky now, but you'll get used to it as the days past...the life and times of Raheem has begun..

Sasha

I' finally back at uni and things are already getting heated, my trip home wasn't as fullfilling as i thought it'd be but hey, i learnt so many things, discovered so many hidden secrects, it was time to use what i'd learnt to adapdt back to my environment in uni. As soon as i got back, i went to see Sasha, a friend of mine. Sasha is this girl i've been talking to for a couple of weeks now, we only recently just started talking 'on a level', she's smart, sexy and has a nice but petite body, she's quite tall, about 5,9". A lot of guys want to get with her and trying their best to win her love but no joy, oh well. Before, me and Sahsa were not too close but we always seem to see eachother, i don't know, she had this sort of 'pretty-boy' image of me, which explains why she always said "aww your so cute" when she saw me, little did i know that my game was slippin those times. I remember me and the guys at uni having one of those male bonding chats, you know the one where everyone talks about what was happening in their love life/playground...well for some reason, my situation/life seemed to be the centre on attention that evening, apparently one of the guys told me that they must have overheard Sasha talking to all of her girlfriends about all the boys in town and 'Raheem' just happened to pop up in the conversation. Basically she told all her friends that my game was slipping and that i could be getting so many girls but i'm weak. I won't lie, that hurt me, because it was the truth(at that point in time), it damaged my ego badly and things get sticky when a person trys to puncher a mans ego(especially a woman)...so i knew i couldn't go down like that, 'Raheem' in the book of losers? no way, i had to show her what i was about, this was part of what i was cooking up during my time back home in the holiday, trying to regenerate that energy i had inside of me.Sasha was my target, she was my prey, as bad as that may sound i didn't want to get caught up because she was about to enter my playground, a place where her rules don't exist, only mine..

Anyways, we talked while i was in her room, it was a very intimate atmosphere, the soft sound of b2k's 'gots ta be' subdued the air of the room. It was so soulful. Sasha had no feeling for me watsoever, i guess all she saw was a pretty face, but i was about to bring her into a new worl u see it??? We spoke for some time whilst lying on the bed with eacother, you see, this wasn't a big thing for us because we always lie on the bed together but before tonight everything was platonic. "Raheem i never you i would ever be talking to you like this, i mean you've shown me so many things, it's like every other guy in this place is the same, but your so different" she said in a soft voice. I did not reply with a word but smiled. I was loving this, the same girl that was exposing my weakness to her friends is here with me pouring her heart out to me. I looked deep into her eyes, she gazed back, i knew what was coming next but i delayed it for a while. Before i knew it, she planted a soft kiss on my lips, looked back at me and went back for another one, we went on for like 10 mins, it was great!!

"I can't believe that just happened, what was that about?" she said, as if she'd just woken up from a dream. "We kissed, that's what happen" i replied sarcastically. She went on about how weird it was that before she had no feelings for me whatsoever and now.....well i don't know what it is, i didn't bother asking her, so much for the 'cute' image she had of me ehh...You see girls like Sasha amaze me, when they think they've got the world at the palm of thier hands it jus slips away, she thought she was on top of me, but remember, that was when she was out of the playground, as soon as she entered, her rules/decisions were overridden by mine...

Welcome to the playground Sasha, hope you have fun...

Missing you Winnie, can't wait to see you Donna.

NB: IN THE PLAYGROUND IS NOTHING BUT PLEASURE, BUT BE WARNED, THE PLASURE COMES WITH PAIN....YOU JUST HAVE TO LEARN TO ADAPT TO THE ENVIRONMENT.....EVOLUTION RIGHT????

Raheem

New Season, New Saga......:The Summary

It's like my mind are playing tricks on me. Here i was 3 days ago, so into Winnie, thinking about her all the time, seeing her and getting butterflies. I wanted her in my life, and now it's like those feelings are completely gone. How can you have feelings for someone and those feelings are gone within three days....maybe it was just lust, or the fact that i reminicsed about what happened between us in the past and wanted it back.

"Raheem, have you ever stopped to think about what happened between us in the past? I mean we have never talked about it" She said. Im thinking, OK, why is she bringing this up? i mean, there must be some reason right? I went RED, i mean totally RED..

"Yeah, i know. I was thinking the same thing, it's like we covered it up init...not that it makes any relevance now does it"? I replied.

We spoke for a while but did not dwell on the subject too much. I think my feelings/thoughts i had of Winnie were just temporary, besides it's not like we were in a relationship or anything so it's not a big thing, me and her were in the past, and i guess i'd just have to deal with the fact and confirm our relationship as STRICTLY PLATONIC. It may not be what i totally want, deep down, but it's one of those situatuations that you have to 'do the right thing at the right time' you see it???


Its all about Donna YOU SEE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I think i need to forget about the past and embrace the future, it's a new year, new things and new begginings. I've been talking to this new girl. Her name's Donna, only met her at univeristy but she doesn't actually attend my university but one near mine. She's really pretty, got a nice athletic body since she used to do track field sports, her hair is naturally sexy, hence no weave.(Girls with weave don't be offended, i just believe that you shouldn't wear things that don't belong to you and even if you do, DO IT IN STYLE!!!). At the moment she's what i'd call a PR, we talk about anything and everything. She tells me what her ideal man is, and i tell her what my ideal woman is. Before we wasn't really close becuase she sort of liked my friend Andrew, but he wasn't really into her. I never really thought i'd get such a close PR, because most that i've had in the past, they are only there becuase they have some sort of attraction to me so it's never completely real, if you know what i mean. I think Donna is going to be a real PR in my life because before we started talking I sort of had a thing for her but now we have started talking properly, and discovering each-other i can see us having a relationship that is strictly platonic as in no strings attatched, which is something i need in my life right about now, i need a REAL female point of view on certain things in my life, not just a girl telling me things and in the back of her mind, she's thinking "ahh man, i want him so bad", NOPE NOPE NOPE, IT'S NOT THAT!!!! I need realness in my life and i'm hoping Donna can give me that.
I have TOO many meaningless women in my life right about now, as in ones that don't need to be there, it's time to narrow it down and let each know where they stand.
Grace is still there, always will be, everytime i see her, i get mini butterflies and i know she does too(at least i think she does..)

Last night i discovered the most SAUCY information, some info i wansn't meant to see.... It showed me so many things about some of the girls back home in London. I will bring it up again, but for now, i think it should be left alone for a bit...I'll call it the SNITCH-Documents.., so look forward to a whole post dedicated to the SNITCH-Documents...lol(wow, i'm loving it)

Going to see Winnie tonight and let her know the deal.....
And Donna should be getting a call from me....
Grace is just going to get a lil text...

New Year, New things, New Begginings

Raheem xxx