The Icebox diaries
The icebox diaries is based on TRUE EVENTS, so don't be suprised by some of the things you will see in forthcoming posts, this is why i haven't really been in the swing of blogging for a while, i've just been living and experiencing things, i guess u cant really know where u are going until you know where you are coming from. Dudes, i've been places, now is the time for me to tell the story....heheheahaaha(rubs hands together).
After my long period of suffering from the ugly 'ONE-ITIS' i finally "patched" things up with Sasha. For a long time i was being cold with her, not answering her calls, text messages or emails(ok maybe she didnt go as far as emailing me). I finally got to a stage where i kept trying to clear her out of my head and flush every ounce of emotional feeling i had for her, it worked out alright. .But you are probably wondering why i was like this towards her. Ok, here's the deal. She is beautiful, and when i say beautiful, im talking literally CHOONG!, Sasha is one of the most prettiest girls i've dated. Note, i said 'dated', which means no committment right? Ok, this is where the problem lies. Shes a pretty girl, im a fine ass brother sounds good right? hmmm...well not good enough. In uni, she's miss hot thang, all the brothers want her etc. But does that mean i should feel privelaged by getting her to the level where i have gotten her to?(Phase two of the butterfly love theory...see previous posts) She speaks to a lot of guys.....ok a lot more than 'a lot' and i find this funny. Now, the main issue is trust, i dont think i can ever trust this girl and that is a problem, she trusts me, but i dont trust her, funny aint it? Now we have come such a long way for things to all go pear shaped. I must admit, this is the most messed up situation i've gotten myself into in a very long time. So its a thing where, if i can't trust you, what's the point?
I told Sasha that i wish we could be closer but the relationship she has with her 'best friend' (who is also MY friend, and is also a MALE) WILL make that very very difficult. And i have come to the conclusion that i can never compromise my levels/standards. No matter how much i try to accept the fact that she talks to a lot of guys, it wont change the fact that i can never move things forward with a girl like that, i dont care what the situation is. So.....whats the solution?....there isn't one, i can completly shut her off, but i'd be kidding myself because i like her being around, i can show her love and attention but that will compromise my mentality of being ME...because some next 'badboy' can come along and snatch what i've built with hard work...lol...so........
....well my next step is to act. It sounds crude and sinitser but its my way or the highway now. I told her i trust her so much more(but i feel the exact opposite) and told her that i have a problem with the fact that she talks to other guys and by her talking to other guys creates barrier to the level me and her can reach with eachother, it's the only way, so i guess i'm showing her from now so she's not suprised when she finds out im seeing someone else because i got fed up and found someone better. ;-) .....Sahsa aint going anywhere for now.
The IceBox diaries begin. Stay Locked
After my long period of suffering from the ugly 'ONE-ITIS' i finally "patched" things up with Sasha. For a long time i was being cold with her, not answering her calls, text messages or emails(ok maybe she didnt go as far as emailing me). I finally got to a stage where i kept trying to clear her out of my head and flush every ounce of emotional feeling i had for her, it worked out alright. .But you are probably wondering why i was like this towards her. Ok, here's the deal. She is beautiful, and when i say beautiful, im talking literally CHOONG!, Sasha is one of the most prettiest girls i've dated. Note, i said 'dated', which means no committment right? Ok, this is where the problem lies. Shes a pretty girl, im a fine ass brother sounds good right? hmmm...well not good enough. In uni, she's miss hot thang, all the brothers want her etc. But does that mean i should feel privelaged by getting her to the level where i have gotten her to?(Phase two of the butterfly love theory...see previous posts) She speaks to a lot of guys.....ok a lot more than 'a lot' and i find this funny. Now, the main issue is trust, i dont think i can ever trust this girl and that is a problem, she trusts me, but i dont trust her, funny aint it? Now we have come such a long way for things to all go pear shaped. I must admit, this is the most messed up situation i've gotten myself into in a very long time. So its a thing where, if i can't trust you, what's the point?
I told Sasha that i wish we could be closer but the relationship she has with her 'best friend' (who is also MY friend, and is also a MALE) WILL make that very very difficult. And i have come to the conclusion that i can never compromise my levels/standards. No matter how much i try to accept the fact that she talks to a lot of guys, it wont change the fact that i can never move things forward with a girl like that, i dont care what the situation is. So.....whats the solution?....there isn't one, i can completly shut her off, but i'd be kidding myself because i like her being around, i can show her love and attention but that will compromise my mentality of being ME...because some next 'badboy' can come along and snatch what i've built with hard work...lol...so........
....well my next step is to act. It sounds crude and sinitser but its my way or the highway now. I told her i trust her so much more(but i feel the exact opposite) and told her that i have a problem with the fact that she talks to other guys and by her talking to other guys creates barrier to the level me and her can reach with eachother, it's the only way, so i guess i'm showing her from now so she's not suprised when she finds out im seeing someone else because i got fed up and found someone better. ;-) .....Sahsa aint going anywhere for now.
The IceBox diaries begin. Stay Locked
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