On a New Level

Casey Summer Diaries...

"Say... ...Baby, are you cold my lady, it's 'bout 80 degrees and my ac's acting shady, why you got all them clothes, covering up your body, you can loose them trust me, you'll still be a super honey....."

The Sounds Of Dwele 'My Lova' OOoozed Through speakers on my bedroom sound system at 1am


The past few weeks have been very 'chilled' and laid back. Most of my life now revolves around work and a bit of my social life. I'm only 19 and i am starting to learn so many things about relationships and life that most men may not understand until they are actually married. (ha) Been speaking to some of my boys back home (i'm currently at university) and they been telling me so many stories and their exciting experiences and encounters with the City Of London. Ever since, they've all been anticipating my arrival to the capital, and i, myself cannot wait to see all of the faces that i have'nt seen in such a LONG time.

Meanwhile....i lay here with Savanah. Her hair so long(and real), her soft skin brown like caramel touched and looked so sexy with my dark brown chocolate toned complexion, her lips so soft and pronounced you could just kiss them all night...her body so petite like a coca cola bottle We lay together, i was behind her and she was in front, our bodies curved....It was Kodak moment i ain't gon' front. It was last night, about 1am. We was up all night doing our usual, talking and conversating. Savanah was different from every other girl that has ever entered my life, she was the only girl in which i created a bond and connection with before getting onto the 'physical' thang', which is why we so close....there are few women in my life that can even come close to the connection me and her have. Before we got talking she had so many barriers up, but they obviously had to broken and the mutual trust had be made between us, which now is pretty stable. She has a lot of guys who are attracted to her in every single way possible, which is KINDA good for me, because if i am seeing her, a guy's ego is boosted even further when he knows that he's girl is admired or should i say in high demand in the 'dating market' as kelly would say. But i've passed that stage, i actually appreciate her and she does me.

All sounds too good to be true?....OK i know y'all thinking "Ok Casey, where's the catch". Right, in wouldn't exactly say it's a catch but its awkward. This is where Raheem's and Kelly's theory of the Gate, Garden and Palace comes into the situation...see? good theories are useful when needed. Right, i am NO DOUBT in Savanah's Palace, which according to the theory is the special place in the womans heart, where you are probably the only person or one of the few inside(max people in the Palace i believe can be two)...Now, if i'm in her Palace, who does that leave in the Palace....The Ghost?(ex-lovers)....
Now i wouldn't exactly call John a FULL GHOST, i'd call him a Dweller..This is because he was in her life before i came in, John and Savanah were talking and were already close before i came in..Now, John is one of my boys, but the funny thing his, he always denied it that him and Savanah were a 'thing' everytime i asked him. I being the cool guy that i am, left them alone to BE, even if John was being indenial. Weeks passed and me and her got closer, then it eventually got to a stage where i didn't care anymore if them two had anythng going on, because even Savanah admitted that they were just "very close friends", even though she's at his place alot etc, which is really nothing. Now me and her are at a stage where we both know where we are in terms of feelings, so it's casual if u know what i mean. Now....John hasn't left the Palace, he is still there which must mean that they are real close....sometimes i ask myself, how the heck i got myself in such a situation, and i still can't even answer that question....It's going to be an interesting too see where this goes with me and Savanah because our bond is so strong yet unpredictable. All of those 'waste' ladies have been forgotten and wiped out of my life, it's time to experience the things i had been waiting for my whole life, as i draw nearer to the real start of my LoveLife, i pray for the strength to become the best man i can be to all of the wonderful women i am going to meet.

QUOTE OF THE SEASON: "I come to you with only words of passion, looks and money i have none, but should u desire it, my words will bear me out!"

Casey x

"We have to be SICK GUYS"

Ramblings of a joyrider

"With great power comes great responsibility"
Here I sit listening to Jon B's "They dont know...". I have always
thought about being misunderstood often times... Words affliated
with the name Kelly isnt what any mother or father-in-law wants to
hear about a son-in-law... so where did things go wrong? I'm
starting to think am I misunderstood or I have misunderstood
myself? Who am I? ahhh.... that's where the problem lies... Here
are my apologies for being a gemini... I aint saying I'm two
faced... but would saying there are two sides to Kelly make things
clearer? Am I saying I've got a good and a bad side... because at
the end of the day... what do you define as good and what do you
define as bad? which is the real Kelly? The one that wakes up in
the morning or the one that goes to bed at night? Some say I mean
a lot to them while others think I'm a selfish, egostical
narcissist... is it a thing where I have over-inflated my actual
value... what's the difference between ego and pride. Some say ego
is an inflated feeling of pride in your superiority to others
while others say it's the consciousness of your own identity... To
be honest I could say my case is a bit of both... I'm
consciousness of my identity... it's perculiarity, it's uniqueness
and it's appeal which has lead to a notion of being superior to
others... Which came first though? The power or the ego... Was it
a thing where the power acquired led to the rise of the ego... or
through the discovery of one's self... led to a self-fulfilling
prophecy of being what you think you are. A saying says, if you
think you can achieve something then you will achieve it... did me
thinking I had the power give me the power? Okay I've spent the
past lines rambling on looking for an excuse of being in my
current state... at the end of the day... it all comes down to
responsibility... Use you "power" appropriately... as people get
hurt... and when some people get hurt... they become relentless in
bringing you down... I suppose there is something I need to learn
and practice... there are things you want to say or do that aren't
really worth doing and you know from the start it isnt... so why
do I go ahead and do it? For the thrill... what a dumb reason...
the thrill lasts for a while but the ramifications lasts a lot
longer... Do you necessarily have to take the ride even if you are
not interested? It's a thing where often times I feel bad telling
a girl I'm not really into her... but here I am screaming at
myself WHY NOT!!!!???? WOMEN DO THIS EVERYDAY TO MEN!!! WOMEN HAVE
DONE IT TO ME IN THE PAST!!!!

I never realised all this till I came in contact with her... I
wouldnt want her to think I'm all these things "they" say I am...
I never cared about what they said before... but now it's a thing
where I care because of her... I know what I am and what I'm not
... I'm not what people say I am... most of it is out of spite,
out of hurt, out of frustration, out of envy and jealousy... but
the truth is I havent managed my power with responsibility...
This post probably doesnt make the least sense... but whenever you
meet someone new that you seeing... never let her think she's the
only one if she isnt... "I'm talking to other people..." wouldnt
hurt anyone... because at the end of the day she wouldnt come back
to you and say you led her on... because you showed her the deal
from the start... this is where I have failed miserably... getting
caught in the whole "game"... I was never in it for the game...
but for the love of the game... The destination never mattered to
me... it wasnt my driving force... it was the journey that
mattered... How can I be a thief... if all I did was break into
your house, sat down and and then left... sorry for the broken
windows and the damaged hinges... At least you wouldnt be upset if
I told you I wanted to have a look around your house... because at
that point... you could either say yes or no... Looking back in retrospect, how could I have been so dumb to break into hearts without taking anything... I guess it was for the joy of knowing you can break into it... like a joyrider who knows he doesnt want the responsibilty of owning the car but just for the joy for taking it for a spin...

"Dont listen what people say, they dont know about you and me... put it out of your mind cause it's jealousy... they dont know about this here"

Casey (Pronounced Kay-See)

My name is Casey.Sounds Feminine EYY? But what the heck, it was what they called me. Raheem said he is going to be away for a while and since he isn't going to be around, he told me to fill in for him while he is gone therefore you will be seeing be around here a lot, especially for the summer. Me and Raheem are very different in terms of characteristics, certain decisions i will make, he would never even think of making. He is reserved, i am upfront, he is an analyst, i am a risk-taker. I was always percieved as the 'smoothest', and that ain't no lie, i mean, brother has some smooth words. Im 19 years of age, mahogany brown skin and a fairly . My wardrobe is failry sexy and stylish, i'd like to call my look 'The Case Collection' which is a mixture of young retro type dressing(Topman/H$M) with the younger classy look(Reiss/Zara). I am a student, but i've always been the type to be around older people, it's just something i started from early age, which explains why i always hear the regular "oh casey are you really 19?, u seem a lot older". Right this minute i am looking at my nails and i can see that i may need a manicure, so i guess that will be a visit to my personal 'agent' later on this week. Don't be scared dudes, it's okay to have a manicure and pedicure once in a while, treat yourself to something royal, it doesn't mean that you are gay. Especially when your feet are looking like some eagle claws, dude get down to the beauty parlour and get a pedicure, it will pay of when you have to take off your socks before a hot session with the special lady, or in some cases the special 'dude'..ha.

Went on a romantic moonlight walk with someone yesterday. Her name is Tahsa. She's what i can say most guys look for in a lady(which most of the time aint a lot, except for "that thang"). She has smooth light brown skin. Her figure is slender like a coca cola bottle, it aint too much to handle because she is petite. There are a lot of guys who are interested in Tasha, which is not a bad thing at all, just means she is hot property..hmm...But enough about her outer appearance, which is not what its all about, her character is full of life. She knows a lot for a girl and at times it may seem scary, but hey, thats just her....so it was hot, we was bored, so i decided that we both go on a walk somwhere far.....the moon was out, it was queit, the sky was a smoky dark, navy blue and only some streets and alleys that we walked through were lit by a few halogen lights, so it was pretty safe. She told be she felt a bit weary about what could be out there. "Tasha your a joker, whatever is out there it won't be coming for us, well i hope not" i assured her. She gave me a 'yeah right' kind of look. Now we was in the middle of the park, and we started making out, it was so passionate and powerful...no worries, she said she forgot about everything and all that was on her mind was what was going on at that point in time...now whilst all this was going on, i heard a rustling in the bushes near where we were on park. I still continued to make out with her, but i could feel her heart beating, plus she was breathing a bit too much, i knew it was fear. But we still continued, until we heard the rustling the second time..."No way Casey, lets get it of here, this place gives me the creeps" she uttered silently. So we made our way back, and i kept looking back...and guess what i saw run out of the bushes....a fox, a little innocent fox...ah well. We made our way back to mine to complete our lil' Rendezvous we started at the park topped off with some Donnel Jones and Keith Sweat to take us through the night slowly. Cheers Tasha, great night!

That was a brief intro. I'm not the type to make GRAND entrances but i guess me and you(readers) will get to know eachother a bit more eyy....

SUMMER 2006 Sugarlounge Diaries : Casey

P.S i know it says "posted by raheem" at the bottom but my signature (CASEY) will always be addressed underneath every post i write.