March 29, 2005

Came back from work today, Amerie texted me again to tell me they had landed and the weather was cool and all that… I’ve just lost Louise, I’m not about to lose another one! Talking about Louise, Marie called me today asking what was going on… that Louise was all cussing me last night, chatting about how Kelly is so self centred, so selfish and doesn’t put other people’s feelings in perspective… “I think you really misunderstood, Kelly…” She said… “Is it?” I said… “Wanna come round?” Marie said…. What is wrong with this girl??? Your sister was just cussing me, telling me not to come to her house and you are inviting me over… do I really wanna come? Err… NAA! “Go on Kelly… you know you want to…” I was getting sick of all this crap…. One day you’ve got everything all tight and the next day everything is all falling apart… but it was cool though, it wasn’t the first time something like this would happen… it’s one of those things that happen and lasts for like a week or so… but it was cool… looks like this week would be one hell of a boring one… with Amerie on holiday with her ex and Louise acting like a monkey on crack!

I needed a girl who could be my friend, who I could chat on a level with and would have my back anytime, anywhere… which is what Claire and I had before we started seeing each other… Amerie was cool… but I could see it going all wrong because their will be too much feelings involved… and the friendship wont kick off… a light bulb lit on my head…. How about Chloe… I hadn’t called her every since Saturday… so I gave her a quick call…. She sounded cool on the phone… we talked for a while… it was basically about why I hadn’t called her… I felt like chatting some lyrics but I really couldn’t be bothered… I wanted to be for real this time…. “Do you mind coming over?”….

She did come over… which surprised me… I’m like raw… I tried as much as possible to keep things platonic, but her almond shaped eyes weren’t making things any easier… I kept on staring at her lips and kept on snapping myself out of it… come on get a grip on it Kelly… “I’ll like us to be friends like we used to be back in the days… I really like you Chloe… will you be my friend?” I asked her… how dumb of a question was that… will you be my friend? The look in her eyes was like ??? what is this guy on about?

Here’s the stunner…”You know Louise don’t you” Chloe asked… “Yeah…” I answered… “Who is she to you…? You know my friend who had the birthday on Saturday, is actually Louise’s friend and she was at her house on Sunday… and she was telling her about this guy called Kelly… and I’m like is this the same Kelly I know…” What!!!! Louise is such a prat!!! What is she chatting my business for??? “Apparently… you are meant to be some self centred prick, who goes around preying on women’s emotions… she sounded pretty upset…” Chloe said… looking into my eyes for an answer… I was so outraged…. “She’s a chump!!!, why is she talking about me that way???” I told Chloe about what had happened in the past… obviously not mentioning the fact that I cheated on my girlfriend with Louise…. But the fact that she was cool at first and I didn’t think she was what I wanted… and we were friends for a while and then she freaked out one day and she’ even done it in a worse way yesterday…. “I know what you mean, obviously you now obliged to go out with her if you realise she’s not what you want…” She said… “But I’m sure you know how women can be….” She continued… giving me a lecture about all these things I knew!!! “I understand you Kelly, the problem is you know what you want, so when you see something you aint feeling in a girl, you tend to do a runner… which is cool, but then they’ve got feelings too, you can’t run away with people’s feelings… I do like you Kelly… but sometimes I feel intimidated by the way you carry on… it’s like you are smart and intelligent and you know what you want, and what if I show you what I’m on and you not on it…or you suddenly stop being on in” She was serious now… wow… so Chloe did actually like me… “I like you too, Chloe but I don’t wanna do the same to you, because I respect you, you are like so different from bare other women and I wont wanna do the same to you, that’s why I didn’t kiss you on Saturday…. I really wanted to and I’m still kicking myself in the ass for not doing it… but I respect you… that’s why I didn’t do anything… “ I said… okay I was becoming a wussy… “That’s why I want us to be friends… like we were back in the days… you know the way we used to be cool then….” I continued… “Are you sure you can maintain a platonic relationship with me Kelly?” She asked… with so much intensity in her eyes… this is becoming too weird, I had to ease the atmosphere… “Err.. don’t worry about me luv, worry about yourself….” I joked…. “Ha ha… “ She smiled…

It was cool after that… we watched TV for a while just before she left… at least I got me another female companion who I can chat to on a level…. Louise you can carry on acting like a monkey on crack… you’ll be back…. I’m can bet on that….

…and I aint bluffing on that!