Feb 7, 2005

It's actually a week to Valentines Day, and thoughts of KELLY getting dumped kept on ringing in my head...! I had called Lisa last night... and acted normal, told her about my day with Byron, looked like she was playing the game too, she sounded her normal self. She'd asked me what I did on Saturday, came up with some crap about, going to see a film with some friends... (It would give me some excuse... I was with some friends... to see a film, and maybe I was talking to one of the female ones... I don't remember hugging up Tracy at the cinema's box office nor at the snacks bar. So that will do)... She proceeded in asking me what friends... and I said some friends from work, it was some girl's birthday...) "How come you didn't take me along" She said... "The celebrant was paying for everyone and their was a head count, plus she didn't say we could bring anyone...." I blagged... "Okay...that's cool...how was your day?" She asked... and we talked for a while, then went to bed.

Girls are funny people aren't they. There's this girl that I used to see a while back (before Lisa came along). She told me she wasn't ready for any relationship, because she'd just come out of one which wasn't too good... fair enough... I gave her all the words of love from my fountain of love... and she started liking me (AS IN CALLING ME EVERYDAY KINDA LIKING ME!)... we went out a few times... but I never made no physical moves... There was something about her... looked too innocent...even though she was 19. I stopped calling her the night she'd asked me "What was going on between us..." She wanted us to take the next step (If I remember correctly, she was the one who said she wasn't ready for anything serious... this further shows you girls dont know what they want). Anyway she phoned me recently, and asked why I hadn't called her recently... I said something about me being busy (which was true... I'm always busy during the week...weekend is for socialising), she said she just wanted to find out if she said something or did something wrong... I'm like no..not at all... Don't get me wrong, she was a nice, beautiful girl... She had an amazing and lovely personality... but not enough attitude.. too tame... too easy of a challenge... (plus she had curfews... I can't work with that!!! I love my night times!!!)

Anyway I bumped into her today AND YOU WOULDN'T BELIEVE IT!!! THIS GIRL BLANKED ME... LIKE I DIDN'T EXIST!!!! SHE WALKED PAST ME WITH A FRIEND, STOOD JUST LIKE A METRE AWAY FROM ME, AND SHE DIDNT EVEN LOOK AT ME... I CAN BET SHE SAW ME, BUT WANTED TO ACT LIKE SHE DIDN'T!!! Okay maybe I ran away with her emotions... at least I didn't get physical with her...! doesn't that count for anything!!!????

is it me or is that just plain ol' childish... (THAT'S WHY I STOPPED CALLING HER IN THE FIRST PLACE!!!!)